kushet
Cheerios
Registered: 10/05/03
Posts: 120
Loc: I'm lost.
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What do you seek? What is your driving goal in life, or of your existance? Do you pursue that goal? Do you ever wonder what would happen if you were to achieve it?...
I seek truth. At least, I think I do. I want to know the truth about everything. About myself and the state in which I exist. What drives it, what created it. Have I always been? Was my conception at the beginning of the universe? Where does it end and how?
... But therein is the host to the lie. I come close, I can feel it tearing at me, dragging me down into its depths. The reality that I preach for upon pious mounts. Whenever it gets close, to where I can just catch a glimpse... I break... I curl up into a wretched shame of a human being, riddle with terror known only by those locked up and screaming being barred doors of mistrust and the forgings of the herd. The door I constantly try to pry open, finally cracks a bit to allow but a glimmer of what's inside to come trickling through.... and in that instant I scream. I put forth all my efforts to barricade taht door again... To permanently seal it off so that it may never haunt my thoughts again... But sure enough... There I am... at the door... begging for a glimpse inside....... One day.... It will open to its fullest.... and I will be lost within.
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